i am SO TIRED of justifying my existence through work
i always want to party but then i go out and drink more than i probably should and am too hungover to party more the next night
not sure i like what grad school is doing to me
it’s like college but worse because there is more work and less parties+booze+weed
humans have really screwed themselves over. it’s smothering to many of us, who feel our freedoms eroding away more and more on an almost daily basis. most of us have never even had much freedom. it’s easy to see ourselves as sitting on a sinking ship.
but all is not lost, nor is everything hopeless. because life goes on. humans don’t matter. the land will outlast us. the plants and animals will outlast us. we will not live forever, and everything by default will be ok once we are gone. the planet might take a while to heal, but it will be ok.
in the meantime, life is worth living! there are so many experiences to be had, so many things to learn. sure, a lot of history is an example of what not to do, but at least we can learn from it, and are capable of deciding how we want to live our lives on an individual basis. this isn’t 1984 (yet?) and i’m making the most of it. please party with me, there haven’t been enough big parties lately.
i love the cure
“maybe if i drink another coffee, i will feel better”
“maybe if i buy myself a new sweater, i will feel better”
“maybe if i get so drunk i can’t see, i will feel better”
“maybe if i sleep for fourteen hours, i will feel better”
but all these things DO make me feel better so what now?
jk no they don’t
The gods can’t give you anything that’s not already in you, and sometimes they flay you to reach it.
TOOTH AND NAIL